I'm contemplative yet content.
I want sparkling cranberry juice.
Barrie is cold as hell but the company is lovely.
How many people in your life really know you? How many people believe they have you all figured out but make judgements on your life based on these preconceived notions they have about you? So many people freely give us their opinions on our lives even if we don't quite ask them for it. I've come to learn that none of us have the right to judge others and the decisions they make or criticize the plans that they make because of what we perceive their lives to be like. I'm not an open book in the least bit nor do I wear my heart on my sleeve (and yes it was pointed out to me by a friend the other day how cliche that statement is) But what I will never quite get is how people freely voice their opinion on your life yet they really have no idea as to why you are the way you are in the first place. All the meaning in the moment. Beyond that, just chapters in your life....alot to carry and alot to sort through (--- Kurt Halsey). We all get to a place where we think we know what we want, what we need and what we think we need yet people still tell us what they think we need, what we should do and what we want. Majority of the time people voice their opinion as a caring individual but how do they know what is best for another person just because what is best for them in their own lives? I'd like to think that this is done with the best intentions for the most part as I know I am guilty of doing this to people in my life. Someone who has given me some of the best advice I have ever received in my life said to me, "its fine and dandy to have all these differing opinions in your life but at the end of the day its what you want to take from them and what you want to do with them". Do we value of the opinions of the people we "let in", our families opinions, our best friends opinions or the people we chat with on a daily basis? When do we get to a point in our friendships with people when we feel as if they "get us" can paint a pretty accurate description of us? Whose words really matter? I wish I could get there with more people and it is something that I struggle with on a daily basis. To me letting people in is being vulnerable and once you are vulnerable thats when you give someone the chance to see you at your weakest and then they have the ability to use the information that they are now privy to against you. I think it's safe to say I have a pretty skewed opinion on this whole matter. All the people who offer us these opinions how many of them will be there for us? When we deal with said situations that they are voicing their opinion on. If there is one thing I can say I truly learned this year is that at the end of the day we have to just be there for each other, take time to listen and talk and understand, don't judge, don't think that you're the only person in the world who has ever had to deal with such "traumatic events" in your life. That is really one of the only ways we can make it through is just caring for those who truly mean the world to us (it also doesn't hurt to reach out to those who do not mean as much...yet). What I do know is that those who have been there for me / were there for me and offered me some pretty stellar advice along the way were essential in helping me along. I hope I can be there for you guys as well, I really do enjoy my role as the perpetual listener and I am content with this because I know who i there for me.
I am looking for a great situation, I really hope I find it....I need to find it"
--- post-secret.
there are a few people in my heart and thoughts this weekend. [rip]
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
It's Blitz!
To say I am beyond stoked about the new Yeah Yeah Yeahs album coming out on my Birthday would be a bit of an understatement. I am in agreement with the person who just posted on the Lolla board that the yyys should play all three summer festivals this year and as of now they are playing 2 of 3 and of course the one they are not currently on the bill for is the one I am attending.
No Doubt is touring and I think that is beyond fun
however seeing them at the ACC does not appeal to me in the slightest
so I know getting tickers for this show will be a last minute decision for sure. The ACC is just so overpriced, so over done and the sound is hideous. If every show in Toronto were at the Molson Amp and Massey Hall I would be beyond ecstatic about. What I am not ecstatic about? Having to miss the MSTRKRFT show on the 9th as I have TWO exams that day, FML. THEY NEED TO START ANNOUNCING LOLLA BANDS LIKE YESTERDAY. Sara and I are going to see Bloc Party on the 14th, I usually try to make it out everytime they come to TO as they put on a great live show however Silent Alarm will still be the cd I most enjoy from them and I have a feeling we will only get like 3 songs off that album at the show.
Do not even get me started on this Coldplay Tour. My stress level is just a mess because of it AND my uncle is in Florida to make matters worse and he is my other half in getting tickets UGH.
RADIOHEAD should probably tour this summer
that would be lovely
I've seen them live three times
and yet I have never seen Karma Police live.
such a weird concept.
This summer I want to try to get out to as many DJ events as I can. They are a fun change from the usual shows that Sara and I attend. Sara is hopefully going to be coming down for S.C.E.N.E this year, I have not gone for the past few years so I think going back to it with someone who enjoyed their local music scene as much as I enjoyed mine will be wicked and it happens to be a known fact that St. Catharines is one of the best local music scenes in Ontario.
No word of a lie I just called home and left a message for my Mom asking if she was as upset as me about Steven Page leaving the BNL. This is why I love my family so so so much they have fully accepted and embraed my retarded music loving concert going ways. When she called back we fully discussed the band and how good of an actor Sean Penn is.
This is the best setlist I have seen in awhile
and as I just said to Sara
this makes me way to cry
Also Frightened
My Girls
Blue Sky (new song)
Slippi
Leaf House
Summertime Clothes
Guys Eyes
Fireworks
Lion in a Coma
Brothersport
--
Winter's Love
Comfy in Nautica
LOVE.
.....I just wrote a whole post about concerts, I have issues.
No Doubt is touring and I think that is beyond fun
however seeing them at the ACC does not appeal to me in the slightest
so I know getting tickers for this show will be a last minute decision for sure. The ACC is just so overpriced, so over done and the sound is hideous. If every show in Toronto were at the Molson Amp and Massey Hall I would be beyond ecstatic about. What I am not ecstatic about? Having to miss the MSTRKRFT show on the 9th as I have TWO exams that day, FML. THEY NEED TO START ANNOUNCING LOLLA BANDS LIKE YESTERDAY. Sara and I are going to see Bloc Party on the 14th, I usually try to make it out everytime they come to TO as they put on a great live show however Silent Alarm will still be the cd I most enjoy from them and I have a feeling we will only get like 3 songs off that album at the show.
Do not even get me started on this Coldplay Tour. My stress level is just a mess because of it AND my uncle is in Florida to make matters worse and he is my other half in getting tickets UGH.
RADIOHEAD should probably tour this summer
that would be lovely
I've seen them live three times
and yet I have never seen Karma Police live.
such a weird concept.
This summer I want to try to get out to as many DJ events as I can. They are a fun change from the usual shows that Sara and I attend. Sara is hopefully going to be coming down for S.C.E.N.E this year, I have not gone for the past few years so I think going back to it with someone who enjoyed their local music scene as much as I enjoyed mine will be wicked and it happens to be a known fact that St. Catharines is one of the best local music scenes in Ontario.
No word of a lie I just called home and left a message for my Mom asking if she was as upset as me about Steven Page leaving the BNL. This is why I love my family so so so much they have fully accepted and embraed my retarded music loving concert going ways. When she called back we fully discussed the band and how good of an actor Sean Penn is.
This is the best setlist I have seen in awhile
and as I just said to Sara
this makes me way to cry
Also Frightened
My Girls
Blue Sky (new song)
Slippi
Leaf House
Summertime Clothes
Guys Eyes
Fireworks
Lion in a Coma
Brothersport
--
Winter's Love
Comfy in Nautica
LOVE.
.....I just wrote a whole post about concerts, I have issues.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
where do you put your past?
I saw some of my past out the other night
and I did not enjoy it.
Especially when I was informed of a certain individual who was supposed to be there.
That would have been the definition of interesting.
Thank God for Sara only being a speed dial away.
and I did not enjoy it.
Especially when I was informed of a certain individual who was supposed to be there.
That would have been the definition of interesting.
Thank God for Sara only being a speed dial away.
Hope For a Better Tomorrow.
Sara and I went to see Milk tonight and we REALLY enjoyed it, I really want to see Slumdog now to see why it won best picture because I can so see why Sean Penn won best actor. The relationship between Sean Penn and James Francos characters is actually so heart warming and perfect not to mention James Franco is beautiful, haha.
I hope it stops raining out
I want more strawberries
a late night walk to Metro is in order.
My Mother told me today how someone was shot on the TTC and pointed out how people do not get shot in Niagara Falls...ever. Anthony told me the other day that his Mom told him the exact same story. If you have a crazy Italian mother you would understand.
I reactivated my Livejournal tonight and I found this little "45 Questions!" I took in friggen first year. It basically highlights how much I have not changed, minus one big aspect. I figure a litte re post would be fun. The 2009 entries are bolded!
I hope it stops raining out
I want more strawberries
a late night walk to Metro is in order.
My Mother told me today how someone was shot on the TTC and pointed out how people do not get shot in Niagara Falls...ever. Anthony told me the other day that his Mom told him the exact same story. If you have a crazy Italian mother you would understand.
I reactivated my Livejournal tonight and I found this little "45 Questions!" I took in friggen first year. It basically highlights how much I have not changed, minus one big aspect. I figure a litte re post would be fun. The 2009 entries are bolded!
3/14/06 10:28 pm
1. Where are you right now?
341 whidden
- my basement room at 97 Arkell (Hamilton)
2. How's your mood today?
pretty happy
-see above.
3. Do you think your crush/lover is sexy?
of course.
- haha, I am currently without one.
4. One reason for living?
my family.
- ^
5. Ever donated blood?
i'm too small.
- same and I have recently been tattooed.
6. Fave color/s? Fave number?
puple and 3.
- Same!
7. Fave accessories you usually wear?
earrings, bracelets.
- earrings, Ive lost the two bracelets and still am in mourning.
8. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past?
omg...way too many.
- trying.
9. Last time you went out with your friends?
friday.
- today with sara! (le obv).
10. Last time you said i love u?
today.
- today to mommmmmma! and prob sara lol
11. Last movie you watched?
in her shoes.
- Milk.
15.Fave cartoon series?
for better or for worse.
- sameeeee!
16. Fave Disney Character?
belle.
- see above.
17. Most interesting activity?
can't quite say.
- CONCERTS. I would also really like to know what my 18 year old self was doing that was so interesting that I couldnt quite say.
18. Most boring tv program?
pingu.
- hahahaha STILL pingu.
19. Ever wished you could turn back time?
about 7 times a day.
- I do not want to turn back time anymore I have fully embraced moving forward.
22. What do you have planned for tomorrow?
tutorials, perhpas a friend from nf is coming up, making a lasgna, work, antm.
- CLASS MILLS STUDY GROUP PROJECT CLASS STUDY. fml.
23. Your biggest regret?
i have a few.
not staying true to myself.
- none.
24. Are you a people person?
depends on the people.
- totally still holds true.
25. Do you think you're cute/pretty/handsome?
kind of cute.
- I guess still kind of cute.
26. Last game you played?
hmmmm.
- catchphrase.
27. Who's no. 1 on your speed dial?
mike. the bf.
- home.
28.The colour of your mobile phone.?
silver.
- pink!
29. Do you hate anyone? Have any enemies?
i can't hate.
but i do have some strong feelings of dislike.
- agreed.
30. Who do you wish is with you at the moment?
mike.
my family.
- one of the above and its not the first option.
31. Where do you feel like going?
mac cosmetics pro shop.
- some place hottttttt.
32. Fave vacation places?
NYC.
- I still heart NYC.
33. What are you looking forward to this month?
mike's birthday.
C
O
L
D
P
L
A
Y
- of course I would have been looking forward to Coldplay
but am currently looking forward to Bloc Party, March Maddness and Homeeeeee!
34. What was the last thing you wished for?
turn back time.
- bahahahahaah, I lol'd at my first year response. It would now totally be for someone to do all my work for me.
35. what are you gonna be in the future?
be a fashion industry professional.
- FOR SURE.
36. What you like to do during free time?
shopppppping!
- ugh like I can afford to shop anymore, it is depresssssssssing.
so I am going to have to say nap. haha
37. Favourite types of song?
ones by my favourite artists.
- haha I must have thought I was clever or something back then. However I would have to say songs that evoke emotion.
38. Ways that you wish your lover/crush to behave?
spunky...crazy...independent...lovely.
- I still think those are great options.
39. What is currently in your mind?
that i should be doing work.
- fml and the amount of work I have to do tm.
40. What is the name of your Bf/Gf?
mike dicarlo.
- n/a.
41. What is your fave name as of the moment?
mia.
- lyla!
42. Are you taken or single?
takkkkken!
- SINGLE!
43. Where do you usually go shopping?
galleria in the states.
- Poly and I had this discussion yesterday about how we wished the dollar was cheaper so we could shop in the states again!
44. How often do you go shopping?
once a week.
- I now grocery shop about once a week.
45.What are you listening to right now?
friends season 5
- Sufjan Stevens, Casimir Pulaski Day.
(however arcade fire and beck both came up on my party shuffle and that was lovely).
341 whidden
- my basement room at 97 Arkell (Hamilton)
2. How's your mood today?
pretty happy
-see above.
3. Do you think your crush/lover is sexy?
of course.
- haha, I am currently without one.
4. One reason for living?
my family.
- ^
5. Ever donated blood?
i'm too small.
- same and I have recently been tattooed.
6. Fave color/s? Fave number?
puple and 3.
- Same!
7. Fave accessories you usually wear?
earrings, bracelets.
- earrings, Ive lost the two bracelets and still am in mourning.
8. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past?
omg...way too many.
- trying.
9. Last time you went out with your friends?
friday.
- today with sara! (le obv).
10. Last time you said i love u?
today.
- today to mommmmmma! and prob sara lol
11. Last movie you watched?
in her shoes.
- Milk.
15.Fave cartoon series?
for better or for worse.
- sameeeee!
16. Fave Disney Character?
belle.
- see above.
17. Most interesting activity?
can't quite say.
- CONCERTS. I would also really like to know what my 18 year old self was doing that was so interesting that I couldnt quite say.
18. Most boring tv program?
pingu.
- hahahaha STILL pingu.
19. Ever wished you could turn back time?
about 7 times a day.
- I do not want to turn back time anymore I have fully embraced moving forward.
22. What do you have planned for tomorrow?
tutorials, perhpas a friend from nf is coming up, making a lasgna, work, antm.
- CLASS MILLS STUDY GROUP PROJECT CLASS STUDY. fml.
23. Your biggest regret?
i have a few.
not staying true to myself.
- none.
24. Are you a people person?
depends on the people.
- totally still holds true.
25. Do you think you're cute/pretty/handsome?
kind of cute.
- I guess still kind of cute.
26. Last game you played?
hmmmm.
- catchphrase.
27. Who's no. 1 on your speed dial?
mike. the bf.
- home.
28.The colour of your mobile phone.?
silver.
- pink!
29. Do you hate anyone? Have any enemies?
i can't hate.
but i do have some strong feelings of dislike.
- agreed.
30. Who do you wish is with you at the moment?
mike.
my family.
- one of the above and its not the first option.
31. Where do you feel like going?
mac cosmetics pro shop.
- some place hottttttt.
32. Fave vacation places?
NYC.
- I still heart NYC.
33. What are you looking forward to this month?
mike's birthday.
C
O
L
D
P
L
A
Y
- of course I would have been looking forward to Coldplay
but am currently looking forward to Bloc Party, March Maddness and Homeeeeee!
34. What was the last thing you wished for?
turn back time.
- bahahahahaah, I lol'd at my first year response. It would now totally be for someone to do all my work for me.
35. what are you gonna be in the future?
be a fashion industry professional.
- FOR SURE.
36. What you like to do during free time?
shopppppping!
- ugh like I can afford to shop anymore, it is depresssssssssing.
so I am going to have to say nap. haha
37. Favourite types of song?
ones by my favourite artists.
- haha I must have thought I was clever or something back then. However I would have to say songs that evoke emotion.
38. Ways that you wish your lover/crush to behave?
spunky...crazy...independent...lovely.
- I still think those are great options.
39. What is currently in your mind?
that i should be doing work.
- fml and the amount of work I have to do tm.
40. What is the name of your Bf/Gf?
mike dicarlo.
- n/a.
41. What is your fave name as of the moment?
mia.
- lyla!
42. Are you taken or single?
takkkkken!
- SINGLE!
43. Where do you usually go shopping?
galleria in the states.
- Poly and I had this discussion yesterday about how we wished the dollar was cheaper so we could shop in the states again!
44. How often do you go shopping?
once a week.
- I now grocery shop about once a week.
45.What are you listening to right now?
friends season 5
- Sufjan Stevens, Casimir Pulaski Day.
(however arcade fire and beck both came up on my party shuffle and that was lovely).
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
post one.
I constantly have a dialogue running through my head so I figured why not get it down on paper? (figuratively speaking that is).
Its the first week back post reading week and for as long as I can remember I get antsy and feel quite displaced once this time hits. Coming off a reading week full of family, friends, bowling, cheap beer, MTV, movies, gin shots, sweat pants, and sleeping in just to name a few things ;) it has been surprisingly easy to get back into the swing of things here at school. However when I look at my calendar from now until the end of April combined with all the post its over my desk it is the definition of FML.
hollllllllllla final semester of University.
Its the first week back post reading week and for as long as I can remember I get antsy and feel quite displaced once this time hits. Coming off a reading week full of family, friends, bowling, cheap beer, MTV, movies, gin shots, sweat pants, and sleeping in just to name a few things ;) it has been surprisingly easy to get back into the swing of things here at school. However when I look at my calendar from now until the end of April combined with all the post its over my desk it is the definition of FML.
hollllllllllla final semester of University.
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