always remember, never forget.

for some reason as of late I have found myself wondering if I should contact you, to let you know I am doing just fine, to let you know you were always right, I am stronger than I ever let myself realize, to let you know that I'm finally doing what I've always wanted to do.

but then I remember how I got to the place I am now and it was by not having you in my life and I remember the lies, the pain and the bad starts to outweigh the good. everything in my life has started to fall into place and I feel like me again. I thought I would miss you but I don't, I'm content knowing that you're not in my life and haven't been for way over a year now.

I guess I can turn this into my version of a postsecret.

"I want to let you know I am okay, I've become the person you always saw in me, tyfe. but I'll never let you in again".





I found this awhile back
the only words I have left from you and I much prefer it that way
and it was unintentional that they were kept
they still are one of the kindest things anyone has ever said to me
even though they will never hold the same meaning they once did
ty for them.


You are an amazing person, and I think not enough people realize that; and on that note I think its mostly a matter of them taking it for granted. I don't even think you realize how amazing you really are, and whatever happens I really hope that you can come to realize that. You always talk about how people loved me, but I don't think you realize that all of those people loved you too. You were and are just like me. I just happened to be good at computers, so got some often undue recognition. You unfortunately got not so much but deserved much more, for all of the people that you helped, and advice that you gave, and stories that you listened to and problems that you helped solve and days that you brightened. You helped people with real problems and real issues and were there for them when they'd done little to deserve a person like you. And I remember when you won your best personality award in the yearbook I thought that you were grossly underpraised, but I was glad that you were at least acknowledged, and to see that it made you smile made me very happy.

And today you're exactly the same. You're still friendly and smart and very talented, and far more independent than you know. You still listen, to anyone about anything, from Jeff's girl troubles to Kev's. From my random stories about a game that you know nothing about to my sister talking about whatever you talk about. And everyone that you meet loves you. But I found that the problem with doing your best to please everyone is that you spread yourself too thin. And you spend so much time helping every person that needs you that you never build any solid relationships. And those people take you always being there for granted. And that's why I love you so much, because of all the people that I have somewhat friendships with and the people that 'love me' but never talk to me, I have you, the best relationship I've ever had with anyone, and the reason the last year was my favourite so far.