I was carried away.
my beloved ibook g4 died today and it may be the lamest thing to say but I was legitimately upset by this loss. It had a good life in terms of a laptop that is and considering the wear and tear I put it through over the five years that we were together. I feel like a little chapter of my life was put to rest today as I rushed to able twice today hoping that she could be revived. During the first journey she was and I was able to bring her home and do one final back up on the lacie so that all my files were saved. But unfortunately after the final back up she just died. I think I may be in denial that something can be done to revive her and as I sit here looking at this beautiful 2100 dollar MacBook Pro I cannot help but wonder what the next five years of my life are going to bring. It was almost a final concrete goodbye to my undergrad and a harsh realization that I am one step closer to becoming a “real person”. The scary thing is I have no idea what the hell I am going to be doing come April 2011. For once in my life I am not going to pre plan every little detail of my life, I am going to let whatever happens, happen. For so long I thought I wanted to work in this fashion industry but the more I think about it and work through this program I am really starting to question if this is the right path for me. I am really not sure if working in such a superficial industry is one where I will be happy but I am starting to realize that Public Relations and Event Management may be the route I want to take.

rip carrie bb, you will be missed the most.