numbers and figures.

It's funny what brings us to our breaking point.
Can a person pride themselves on being too strong?


I graduate so soon
I have a DEGREE
I can write 2essays in a day
I can tell you anything you want to know regarding American foreign policy
I can explain all of Samuel Huntingtons theories regarding just about anything in the field of political science

but what I can't do is math.
simply stated
I never have been able to
I never will be able to
I barely passed high school math with the help of a tutor
Does this make me a dumb person? According to the university I am currently graduating from, yes.

The only thing I've wanted to do my whole life
is dependent on the one thing I've never been able to succeed at.

Someone pointed out to me the other day
music is math
and lord knows I love music
yet
I'm the least musically inclined person ever.

This isn't meant to be a sob story
or woah is me.


I've studied
I've tried
I just don't get it.

I've hit my breaking point
I don't want to give up
I don't want to fail
but I'm afraid that last little bit of strength I have left in me is too fargone.

It's funny
I got my ass handed to me in 2008
yet I got through that.

Not too many people seem to get it
math just comes easier to them then it does to me.

I'm sitting here struggling with fractions which I spent a good chunk of my elementary and secondary school career learning about.

How in the hell am I supposed to learn algebra on my own?

Maybe my mom was right
maybe this just isn't meant to be.


perhaps it's time to start working on plan b.